superxninjaxmuffins' Journals on Buzznet http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[can i catch my breath?]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1364701/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-11-25T00:15:00Z <![CDATA[i feel like im on a tilt-a-whirl]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1341301/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-11-20T22:36:00Z <![CDATA[i think the remote is broken cause the pause button isnt working]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1323701/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-11-17T20:11:00Z <![CDATA[questions with no answers]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1284981/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-11-10T22:22:00Z <![CDATA[currently stopped at my next desination]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1247301/ sitting in the seat of the bus that will lead me to my next adventure...another part of this journey called life awaiting for it all to unfold gazing at this conjoined seat i seem to have choosen. knowing one of my best friends is currently sitting in the seat beside me and knowing she will stick by my side almost making us seem like two peas in a pod i start to look further beyond this seat and some how i find my mind being twisted into the world around me looking at all of the problems which seem to have no solutions in my eyes but wanting oh so hard to find these solutions that seem to be playing hide and go seek with me the only thing that seems to be running through my head is how much i want this game to end right here right now but knowing that i am not the one who is playing the game seems to hit me in the gut every single time

]]> Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-11-03T22:21:00Z <![CDATA[reality has set back in once again]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1208521/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-10-27T11:32:00Z <![CDATA[the same old storys ladies and gentleman]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1201711/ i seem to rely on this same old torn up notebook everynight...the pencil and paper seem to be my best friends once again...spilling my guts to the only way i know how too..writing to the one thing that, in my mind, seems to listen i can say anything without being critized or mocked for....they seem to be able to connect to the story of my life...

 

you find a way out of what you got yourself into

unfortuantly this is not so true for some...they tend to dig themself a deeper ditch until they are no longer able to pull themselves out in the end they seem to some how get sucked into all of this chaos and all they can do is wait wait for that one person to save them from there misery

]]> Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-10-25T21:53:00Z <![CDATA[both written on the same day]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1181221/ the days keep passing me by and the same thought keeps running through my mind. what happened to the life i used to have why isnt the phrase seasons change but peopld do true? why has everything in my life gone in the opposite direction of where it used to be...life slowly seems to get back to normal or at least what i once considered to be normalwhy cant i go back to the summer why cant i go back to when i was just 5 years old where the most drama revolved around someone pushing you on the playground i had no worries in the world back then  i was me and only me i dressed the way i wanted to i talked to everyone and anyone what happened to the good ole days when fun was all you had to care about

The seasons are once again changing another year added onto my youth they years seem to be flying past another night of hanging out with friends around a bonfire sipping hot chocolate seem to be fading away as if they never even existed living the life you want living life like there is no tomorrowseem to be my main goals at the moment...i want to be able to look back on my life and be proud of everything and anything that i may have done...maybe one day this will all change maybe i will have different goals or dreams in the near future and i need to know that this will turn out to be a good thing i need to know at least one good change comes out of it all but at this exact moment i am alright with the hopes and dreams that seem to fill my head everyday and night

]]> Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-10-21T19:46:00Z <![CDATA[life as a book]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1181141/ Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-10-21T19:42:00Z <![CDATA[pictures]]> http://superxninjaxmuffins.buzznet.com/user/journal/1181121/ i sit her gazing at picture of the past and present. all that seems to run through my head is this is my life exactly the way i want it to be...im living up to my expectations im living life like the crazy little sophomore that i am sometimes it tends to punch you in the guy but if you think about it life can be your best friend or your biggest enemy thats just the way it seems to be life is not supposed to be controlled in the eyes of others but by you and only you! you dont need to drink or do drugs to be "cool" who even defines the word cool anyways? create your on defintion who says you are supposed to care what others think creat a life taht is yours and only yours dont let others run your life run the life you are living be the one in charge

over and out captain

]]> Buzznet superxninjaxmuffins 2007-10-21T19:35:00Z